So I am going to attempt to do the website thing again. Three months ago, I had something major happen in my personal life that caused me to re-evaluate my life from a creative standpoint.
I have been lying to myself for a very long time. I stopped drawing, painting, and doing anything creative for the most part for many years. I thought I was happy. I was in a committed relationship, I went to work, I came home to her, and I thought life was good. But it turned out, that was all a lie.
From the sounds of this, it sounds like I am sad..but on the contrary, picking up the pencil (well, ok, stylus), has actually felt pretty good. It has felt like reunited with an old friend almost. While I am frustrated that the muscle memory needs to be fully restored, it does feel pretty good to jump back into things.
I have decided, despite the fact that I despise the whole “New Years resolution” thing, I am going to do that this year. A month ago, I was seriously considering committing suicide. Now I am going to commit figurative suicide on 12/31 at 11:59 pm. I am going to kill who I was this past year and walk out a new man in this new year.
I’ve considered challenging myself to do a webcomic. I have a story already, I’ve had a story written since 2001. I keep changing it, and I keep putting it away…I think it’s time to do it.